I recently published one of my most extraordinary poems thus far, “The Aspirations of C. B. Andie,” in The Astorian, an incredibly classy literary journal. I want to make it clear that this poem is the culmination of all of my creative and academic effort through the years. It is what I have myself been aspiring towards. I could not be happier that this poem is finally out there.
Some may notice that, once again, my published name has changed. I began with C. Walker; this was a naive choice. I evolved to Caidan Walker, which was an attempt to deviate from some of the original logic of the choice “C. Walker” but now I have rested on C. W. Pilarski which is the correct application of the logic that produced my initial name. I am, undoubtedly, attempting to be the successor of writers like T. S. Eliot. Let us see where this takes me.
While I am pursuing my creative interests, I am also exploring my academic desires. While at UAF, based on the expertise of the faculty and my own personal interest, I will be writing an MA thesis that incorporates literary psychoanalysis. I have had some introduction to Freud already. I am as well taking the time to read Lacan. Zizek is unavoidable. My desk is a mountain of things-to-read.
The sun is rising after 9 AM here and setting before 4 PM. The darkness is growing. I persist.
C. W. Pilarski
